my health - my work - my life

This is for all of you who ask and care:

I'm not physically sick, but have been diagnosed with a disorder I've had my entire life. I was prescriped a medication; the symptoms of the disorder are mostly gone, but now I need to learn to deal with my feelings and sensations in a new way and unlearn all the coping strategies I've applied before that are not helpful anymore.

My colleagues and bosses can't or don't want to support me at work by providing a healthier surrounding for me so it's very hard for me to continue working there. They don't understand that with this new medication, suddenly my problems are very different from those I had before. It is indeed hard to understand, even for me. I have accepted the full-time position only because the alternative was being unemployed - my employer refused to let me work part time. I'll have to see how I'll be getting along now, after all, I'm able to filter sounds better now, concentrate more easily and not let every little thing - a phone ringing, a pencil dropping - bother me. Also, I'm not as exhausted after work as I used to be because it doesn't take so much strength to concentrate now. What I'm experiencing and feeling now isn't always easy, but it makes so much sense and feels right - it's good to finally know what is really wrong with me, and not be falsely diagnosed with depression or burn-out. I may go to a special clinic and learn my way around my new world. I might also find another job again, who knows?

(Excellent translation by: katimus. Isn't it good to have a daughter like this who really understands what's up with me? or to me? or about me? or over me? Oh I hate ...)

I noticed the tic-tac boxes with my mini-eyes yesterday and made some sidetables!

Guter Geschmack - good taste !?!

Heute musste ich an meine Oma denken und ihre Wohnung. Ich weiß nicht, ob sie einen guten Geschmack hatte. Es sah bei ihr eben so aus, wie es aussah.

Today I had to think about my grandmother and her apartment. I do not know whether she had good taste. It looked at her just from the way it looked.


Als junge Frau war sie jedenfalls eitel und hat auf sich geachtet, wie dies Foto von ihr von ca. 1924 zeigt.

As a young woman she was vain and has certainly paid attention to itself, as shown in photo of her around 1924

Das Bild mit dem röhrenden Hirsch über dem Sofa habe ich noch gut in Erinnerung. Ich hatte als kleines Kind große Angst, dass es mir beim Toben auf den Kopf fallen könnte. Und es war auch sonst sehr beeindruckend für mich. Der röhrende Hirsch ist eines der deutschesten Dinge die ich kenne.

The painting with the stag above the sofa, I have still fresh in memory. I was scared as a little kid that it might fall dow to my head, when I uproar on the sofa. And it was otherwise very impressive for me. The roaring stag is one of the most German of things that I know.

Meine Oma hatte keine Katze, aber einen Wellensittich namens Peter.

My Grandma had no cat, but a budgie named Peter

Besonders das rote Kissen erinnert mich sehr an meine Oma. Ein Klavier hatte sie auch nicht, aber dass es eine Zur-Erinnerung-an-Oma-Szene wird, hat sich erst entwickelt.

Especially the red pillow reminds me of my grandma. She didn't have a piano, either, but this developed into a grandma-remembrance-scene rather than start out as such.

Ich denke mal, jedes Kind liebt die Wohnung seiner Oma, egal ob sie nun vollgestellt ist mit Erinnerungen oder sauber und ordentlich oder ein Naturparadies.

I guess every child loves the apartment or house of his grandparents, whether it is crowded with memories or clean and tidy or a natural paradise.

the lawyer's office

Update: I looked for a container in the style of paris-renfroe. this was the most similar thing I found in "my" railway-shop nearby.

in the last weeks - since I took the new medicine - all my thoughts are surrounding my work, my work, my work. there were so good experiences, disappointment and some very bad things happend. but today I decided, that I don't want to tilt at windmills any more.
I signed my contract - fulltime. I'm not sure that this is the best solution, but I will see what happens long-range with my medication. I hope that I'll be able to think of other things now, but today I made an office-scene, a typical office of a lawyer in my company:

Luxury

What a wonderful surprise

Incredible what happens to me: I got a parcel with some pieces, the sender doesn't want anymore - as a gift. It was anounced to me, but I never thougt to receive such - handmade !!! - treasures.

I was really speechless.

Many thanks to my flickr-friend pinchofpepper, an awesome person!

Experiments

Today I made some more experiments with my new colored transparent folders. The sun is shining, yeah!

the blue room

I actually don't like this kind of wooden-furniture for children so much, but MCs use of it made my want to try it in my boxes. Especially the sofa inspired me to make a scene with a cool outfit.
I bought some coloured Klarsichthüllen for the Kaleidoscope-effect and used my building-blocks and cardbox-pillars and styropor.

Crazy about Dollshouses!!!

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I wasn't on ebay this year except the links I found on others blogs - only for a short view. I am so proud that I was able to resist! But today I wanted to buy something new for my dollshouses and I know a very oldfashioned shop for toys and other stuff, I saw a beeboo-dollhouse-furniture set there before christmas. Today after work I made a little walk to this shop, I met an old friend of my schooldays and I found the furniture - only 15 €. I bought some other stuff, it is a treasure trove there! New is the littel birdcage as an easter-decoration, the playmobil-micro-house, the playmobil camera and some other little things. Now I wish I had such a tripod for my camera too.
Hope you enjoy this rooms of a dollshouse-maniac:

want some caribbean feeling? (sunshine award)

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I'm so sick and tired of the winter, I want a bacardi-feeling right now.
No storm, no rain, no snow, no cold - only relaxing in the sun.
Hope you all who feel like this have a little moment of sunshine-feeling.
Once again I want to thank all you guys who give me the sunshine award.

Bathroom in a vinebox

The collector